everyone is out now. and im home. bah. what the hell? was on the phone with wai, she's at kimseng again.. anyway. __________(insert name please) with the insatiable belly for money not funny. and wai wrote it with someone's name on it. and the person appears. ha. had to remind her to erase it away can. anway.. am i making sense? ah. whatever..

its funny how im feeling this way cos........ i dont think i know you very well after all. hrrms.

just had my lunch.. katonglaksa. now im feeling like a glutton. bah!. anyway went over to boatquay last night. wanted to go to ms but no one wanted to go. sheesh. boatquay was horrible horrible horrible. firstly, once we reached.. it rained. secondly, catherine was in a horrible mood. or was it me? i dont think so.. whatever. there were a total of 11 of us i think. and we went to some super horrible club cos it was raining and we couldnt get anywhere. can you fucking imagine.. we were the only group of chinese there? im not trying to be a racist here or something. but.. ah. whatever.

i didnt want to go back to kimseng cos i dont think we were invited.. so wai and i ended up roaming around boatquay. what the fuck right? we walked one hugeeeee round from boatquay to fullerton.. then went to the esplanade.. then to the merlion.. ( and note, all these were done between the time frame of 3am - 530am ) anyway i had loads of fun bitching, singing, talking, sharing out err, point of views and all. :)

anyway i was msging edmund.. and he asked us to go over to kimseng cos we were homeless.. so we went over at about 545 since we were actually invited there. talked so much rubbish.. laughed quite alot too. bitched also. hahaha. anyway left kimseng at about 8 to go to church.. but went to holland for breakfast with wai first. soft boiled eggs.. :) fantastic. ha.

worship was good. :) haha. reminded me of the primary school days.. friday's chapel service. aww. sermon was owell.. a little boring. but maybe also because i was partly distracted.. was writing a so called teacher's day note for ms low. and mind you, i wrote it in mandarin! a whole page of it.. woohoo. haha. of cos with english words here and there.. something like. "lao shi DAY kuai le" cos i forgot how to write "jie" haha. hada kinda long chat with ms low after service.. from 11 all the way to 1? around there.. yar. haha. talked so much rubbish.. then as usual, the teasing and all. heh. also serious talks la. we're planning a mission trip in december.. hopefully, this is our "dream group".. ringo, geraldine, jen, hazel, evelyn, ailing and me! :) shall pray about it.. saw ms low's holiday snapshots taken in africa.. gosh. its a beautiful country. as in if i didnt know, looking at the pictures.. i would never have thought that she went to africa. ( maybe except the picture of them and the bush man. ) the scenery there is like.. wow. breath taking. went to holland after that for awhile.. and now im backk. hrrms. im reallllly sleepy. only slept for like 45 minutes this morning. and i woke up at 10am yesterday!

i can feel the temptations rising in me as i glance over to my bed.. ahh. okay.. bed time. nitenites world. :) im a happppy girl. hee.

hrrms. just arrived at kimseng.. left house around 4plus today. went to sunsetway to buy fag cos its wayyy cheaper there. dont ask me why. haha. anyway went to kimseng after that.. went to greatworld to change some money. and headed to cat's house. but apparently she was in a horrible mood so we left.. went over to the hawkercentre nearby to get some rojak to bring to the pool place..

went to this guy's birthday party after that. dont know the guy personally but roy invited us. wai and i took a cab to kk hospital to pick roy, chris and jacob up. squeezed in the cab like some fools.. the party was at thomson road. and i have to say this.. the house is....... wow. fantastic. its hugeeee. and there are like a total of 3 mercedes convertibles parked at the carpark, together with many continental cars.. and there were quite alot of people at the party. free flow of drinks. :) i got a little high at a point but not drunk. ahh. and in the garden and around the house, there are actually live flamingoes and peacocks. also not excluding the parrots.. its like a bird park. haha. and the living room, there are 2.. are totally huge.. also not forgetting there's this reallly nice pool there.. quite big. after the birthday song and all.. the basement was opened. you could actually see the pool from there.. like wow. yar. totally nice. and there was a snooker table there and all. but they were playing techno music.. ?!!!!.... followed by r&b when we were about to leave.. haha.

okay. and now im at kimseng.. and we're going to boatquay i think. either that or ms.. not sure.. -yawns- and im going to church tomorrow. gosh.

-yawns- cant believe im up so early.. cant seem to sleep well last night.. had a couple of queer dreams.. hrrm. so many things on today. or at least i think? there's the church carnival.. then im going to kimseng at night.. and also there's this party at i dont know who's house but all i know is roy asked us to go. somewhere in bradell if im not wrong.. then maybe we're going clubbing tonight.. and i have to make sure i have enough sleep tonight for me to attend church tomorrow. only afraid i will have a hangover. shucks. have to make sure i control what i drink later.

just got home.. went to greatworld just now. they no longer have the bag that i like from guess.. :( boohoo. haiyarh. shall look out for nicer bags. hee. had a great chat with catherine outside kfc just now. we were just saying that its been so long since we've sat there to actually talk.. kinda miss those times.. anyway.. edmund and audrey came soon after.. and edmund and catherine went to pierce their ear! really pretty.. heh.

took a bus allll the way home. wai came up the bus i was on and she waited at my void deck while i went up to change and take my books. ( i went to school empty handed! ) told my mom i was going down to study.. ha. went to jacob's house to be his cleaner. cos we drew on the walls at his stairway. and his mom insisted that we clean it up.. then went into his house.. haha. oscar is so cute. but im a little scared of him. ha. had to use jif to erase the act of vandalism we did. bah. and jacob said im the retro ah lian today.. ha.. dumb. hrrms.. jacob di di arhs, i know you will be reading this. haha. you better keep what we told you to yourself.. both things k. and dont worry.. we will keep to ourselves what you told us.. :) anyway went over to bukitpanjangplaza.. walked around.. oh we took photos!!! haha. at the instant passport photo booth. really funny. lol.

feeling hungry now. growllls. im going to indulge in some really sinful chocolate ice cream in the freezer and probably put on like 2kgs or something. bah!

hrrms. im at cat's house now. went to school in the morning but i ran away during recess with rio and jambi.. haha. shite, now im scared that my form teacher realises that im gone. blarghs. school was booooring. stupid aces day. is that how you spell it? ahh, heck.

things havent been looking fine at home. chaos. horrible. hate it. sometimes i just wish that i could run away from it all. just get away from all these. like how danny did. sigh.

anyway wai came over today. we studied.. really! :) haha. there was this point both of us were so happy we kept smiling.. and then at different point of time.. we both said the same thing at the same time.. how amazing. owelll, cheap thrill. blarghs. haha. studied from like 3plus all the way till 6. then i felt the urge to go to the gym.. so i went up to change.. went down to the gym.. ( left my school bag, wallet etc ALL upstairs. ) the stupid guard decides to be a total pain in the ass and demands to check my ic to check whether im above 16. like what the fuck? i can buy fag at almost all places.. and he thinks im underaged? ugh! and besides the gym incident, i got a "scolding" from him today. for entering the gym without proper attire. what the fuck. super pissed with him. when he requested to see my ic and my resident pass, i just threw the thing on the table. stupid ass. shall never use the facilities anymore when he's around. ugh!

anyway school tomorrow. boring. dont feel like going but not like im left with much of a choice. maybe going clubbing on saturday.. hrrms. not sure.. i wanna go to either centro or zouk!! :) but im underaged. bummer. shall see how la. and monday is a holiday!! woohoo! the joy of being a student.

wahlao. my sis confiscated my phone. but i gave her this old sim card that's not of use. and that bitch went to switch on my phone and now she suspects something. ugh. heck. anyway getting my 7210 back tomorrow. but they cant know it. hee.

oh.. today, during recess.. i went to the principal's office to get my 7210 back. then he asked me to sit down.. and have a chat with him. what the hell? then dr loh was asking why my church/family didnt contact him at all? and he was saying that they just chucked me at bmss and leave me alone?! then.. came the big question. he said from what he sees, i have certain issues in my life that im unsure off and that im not willing to come clean with. and he didnt really know what to say.. so i was like.. "dr loh, is it my sexuality you're talking about? im certainly very sure of my sexuality. and no, im not a lesbian. i do not fancy girls." he was a little shocked cos he didnt really expect such an honest answer from me i think. and he said some comments about me wearing err, boyish? HA. wait till my mom hears that. boyish and me? thats like totally off. cos even if im wearing sneakers with jeans.. my tee will always be a fitted tee.. not a hugeee tee or something? and also he commented about me wearing sports bra to school. like what the fuck? am i supposed to wear some fucking padded shit bra that everyone else is wearing? eww. then he was asking whether i have a boyfriend.. and i was like .. no. then he asked why not.. is it because i have feelings towards girls.. totally out of point? so is it true that everyone who is un-attached now have inclined feelings, and i mean the lovey dovey feelings to people of the same sex? no logic.

im not a lesbian larh. wahlao. i was actually quite insulted by my principal. i mean he judged that im a lesbian from my outer appearance.. like.. err? ugh!

hrrm. im back at bukitpanjang now. kinda miss being at home. cos im only back here on weekends.. and im not even home on saturdays.. sometimes i dont even come home. and on sunday, there's church and then when i get home.. im always in my room. actually come to think of it.. im always in my room whenever im home. on the computer. O levels soon. FARK.

whoa. im so happy now. :) haha. cannot believe it. was on the phone with wai and we started laughing veryy veryy loudly. hahahah. :) pure joy of the "medicine." :)

since the moment i spotted you
like walking around with little wings on my shoes
my stomach's filled with the butterflies
and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i've got the feelin' like i'm never gonna come down
if i said i didn't like it then you know i'd lied

but every time i try to talk to you
i get tongue-tied
turns out, everything i say to you
comes out wrong and never comes out right

so i'll say why don't you and i get together and take on the world
and be together forever
heads we will and tails we'll try again
so i say why don't you and i together, fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
cause without you they're never gonna let me in

why dont you and i - carlos santana.
nice song.. i like. :) pssst, uoyssimi
forty-6 // twenty-6 // medicine // mr decent guy // eyecandy *grins

i sent a total of 1789 messages in my recent handphone bill. i cannot believe this. gosh. my mom is so pissed.

such an unproductive day. firstly, i didnt go to church today. overslept and spent my time sleeping till 12plus. then i ate my err, breakfast of soft boiled eggs. after which i snuggled in bed (again) with a glass of meiji's chocolate milk next to me and of cos a good book. ha. white oleander it is. all the way till 2plus. then i cleared my wardrobe. finally as my mom would say. arranged my tops according to their color this time. whites on the left.. followed by beige, pink, red, purple, blue and lastly black! haha. and for the bottom, its the usual. by their length. haha. dumbb. anyway still got so many things to clear next week. sheesh. troublesome! oh i saw my girl guides ( oh yes shoot me, what was i thinking? ) uniform and my smss uniform chucked at the back of the wardrobe.. hrrm. think im going to throw away that ugly blue thing. but im keeping that polka dotted piece of shit. for.. memories.

been thinking quite alot these few days. maybe even too much. i know very well that things wont work out, neither will it be sloved if all i do is run away from it. running away. im darn good at that. yes? maybe its time i stop running away.

oh.. wai and i were taking 16 to kimseng. and there was this reallllllly friendly bus driver. we went up the bus and he was like.. "good evening." so i told wai that maybe we should write in to praise sbs for having such a polite bus driver.

me: "if write in then how ah? what will they do to reward him?"
wai: "i know i know! promote him to drive a double decker bus!!" ( 16 is always single decked )
daphne laughs non stop..
me: "then if double decker bus already.. then want to reward him again how ah?"
wai: "let him drive the double decker bus with advertisements!!"
daphne laughs again.
me: "then trans island bus how ah?"
wai: "then the driver can drive the loooong bus larh!"

okay. this really cracked me up. haha. cheap thrill.

just got home.. wahlao. it was a boring saturday. and i just realised something.. wai and i didnt meet any lido people today! haha. record breaking? lol.

went to the ica at lavender to collect my renewed passport. then i had to take the photo.. the person was like asking me to take off my nose stud.. sit straight.. flip my fringe up.. etc etc. so many things. then, i realised i didnt bring my old passport there. wasted my time going there. bah. then went to heeren to meet sheryl, wai, denise and daphne. ( denise's sister larh. daphne chua ) haha. walked around.. was a boring saturday. hardly saw anyone.. then sheryl and i were soooo bored. we sat at the seats next to heeren's 4th level escalator to bitch. lol. with our bag full of sweets from tiny toons. then went to kimseng. boring. haha. went to greatworld. i've decided to get the guess handbag. yay. its really pretty. went to marche with sheryl. haha. rosti. :)

i didnt get my dosage. aww. neither did i get to see birdy. sigh.

although there are those so called setbacks.. im a happy girl today. wai commented that i look very happy today. haha. especially at greatworld. we were like a bunch of kids. haha. actually things are very nice without tauyou........ (inside joke)

-yawns- just woke up.. got a sudden craving for macdonald's big breakfast.. but its already past 11. sulks. anyway had funny dreams last night. i dreamt that my second brother danny came back from newyork. and he bought me shirts, bags and errrr.. bras from victoria's secret? a little out of point.. anyway i dreamt that i was over at his place.. with his friends watching dvds. then off to another dream.. setting is in school.. with all the lido people? gawd. weird.. anyway i miss danny alot. sigh. i dont even know where is he now. either newyork or europe.. and he left like 3 months ago. wonder how is he now. wonder whether he really managed to quit smoking like he did 3 months ago or did he go back to fagging again? also, i cant help but wonder whether he is one of those cabin crews that are retrenched from the airlines. hope not.. and he'll only be back at the end of september.

anyway meeting sheryl later. hee. been kinda long since i last saw her.. im listening to this cantonese song now. hao xin fen shou. heard it once when we went to the ktv.. although i dont understand a single word. haha. oh.. suddenly thought of the article in the sunday newpaper last week. on fag hags.. ( read, straight women who hangs out with gay guys. ) i think all fag hags are really pretty. but they are mostly spgs. and gay guys are fun people to mix with. seriously. veryy nice and funny people. and they have very good dress sense too. shopping with them is damn fun.. but err, guys mixing with lesbians? lets just say i find that weird. i dont know. maybe im a sexist.. bah.

oh.. on thursday i had to do some public speech in school.. with all the graduating classes. its like a free topic thingy. so i talked about homosexuality. haha. so embarrassing. i didnt even know what i was talking about.

im feeling many many different things at one go.
-im feeling happy cos jacob isnt pissed with us anymore.
-im feeling kinda upset cos i quarreled with a friend about a month back. and i have to admit.. i was a total bitch.
-im feeling a little happy cos im hoping that i'll get to see my eyecandy tomorrow. dont know why im suddenly feeling this way.. weird. but.. hahaha. :)
-im feeling upset cos the Os seems to be just around the corner.
-im feeling down cos i may not be able to go out tomorrow. boohoo.

this is rubbish. i dont know why im typing. must be the after effects of playing too many games of spider solitaire. bah.

yayyy. :) jacob isnt angry with us. not anymore cos he wasnt even angry with us in the first place! he and roy were on the bus last sat and they were so bored so they decided to play a prank on me. wahlaoo. never mind.. at least we know he's not pissed. :)

just got home not too long ago.. had free periods in school againn. bah. boring. met wai after school at clemtnti to go to town together. while i was on bus 14 to clementi, there was this crazy man on the bus. i mean like.. he was behind me.. then he kept kicking the seat.. so my friend and i kinda squirmed in our seat.. then he started shouting vulgarities in every language possible. i heard english, hokkien, chinese, and even indo. what the hell? fucking scary. and my friend went off at the next stop.. so i went to sit wayyy up front.

went to town.. met theresia at lido. before that saw jacob, hendra and azhar. but dont think they saw us. or maybe they did but they're still pissed with me. haiyaa. anyway i saw this damn nice pair of jeans from levi's. the 593. no no, im not that slow to just realise that there is a 593 series.. i have the faded one. but i saw this nicer one. its like superrr faded. abit whitish.. and the cost? $139.50. still comtemplating whether or not i should get it.. veryyy nice. :)

went to fareast to eat at ya kun's. i loveee the egg. damn nice. why is it that the soft boiled eggs that my maid boils at home isnt even half as nice as ya kun's? hrmf.

i hate it when people is so fucking big mouth and yet... they totally deny things. what a fucker.

school was utterly boring today. had like 5 free periods.. after school met wai.
then err, azhar, roy, yuuki and hendra came over to my sister's place. hung around downstairs cos the maid was upstairs.. ha. then theresia came..

before i forget...

happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to sheryl.. :) happy birthday to youuuu! -hugs-
that silly little fucklet turns 15 today. ha. 3 more years to the legal age to fag!!

school was utterly boring today. had like total 6 periods of science..
oh. im starting to read this daily book thingy called err.. some daily bible for starters. forgot the title.. but its quite good.
anyway i didnt fag today. improvement!!! woohoo.

haiya. im a little upset now. -sigh- didnt know happypill could have such a huge effect on us.

haha. im at my tuition's teacher house now having tuition.. school was superr boring. slept for like 3 periods in the morning. lucky i had my jacket with me. something to hug. haha. out of point.

oh yesterday i bought some brownie thingy from caltex. went home and put it in the microwave oven.. turned around and guess wat? it melted. like totally. ahhh! and this morning, my sis bought me a slice of strawberry cake from angie the choice. i was kinda running late so i took the cover and ate it on my way. after 2 mouths, my slice of cake dropped on the floor. sheesh. so sad. and i didnt even eat the strawberry yet!

my hip is aching. slept in the library yesterday and i dunno how i slept. kinda twisted my whole body. now i cant even walk properly. ugh!

oh wai has a blog. its this.

i hate being all pretentious and acting like everything's alright between us because things definitely isnt.

on a lighter note, go try the 2 new mentos flavour. pink grapefruit and strawberry. its veryy nice. :)

today during service.. i kinda felt something telling me that the way im leading my life now isnt the way God has planned it for me.. and i actually feel like.. getting back to God.. though i know it will be a veryy hard thing to do.. lets just say i will try my best. lets take things slowly..

just got home.. hrrm.. service was good.. i enjoyed it.. trying to look for the song complete online but cant seem to find it.. damn. anyway after service went to meet wai and we went over to jelapang.. went to buy instant noodles, jacob's hi cal biscuits, green tea and sweets to apologise to jacob as he's pissed with us. put it outside his door, rang the doorbell and then we ran away.. then we went back to check.. the bag of things are gone! haiya. hope he wont be angry with us already.. yar.

went back home after that.. bathed again. changed again.. then went to the club21 sale again. this time with my 2 other aunts. didnt buy much today. only bought a dkny pink halter, an armani orange tank top, and a pair of dkny pants. then went to kimseng to eat live prawn noodles.. not as nice as i remembered. haha. then i went up to look for edmund..

hrrm.. lets see.. went to greatworld after that. bought 7 g-strings/thongs. no no, not for mondays to sundays. 4 of it is for my sister. although she's such a bitch at times im still trying to be nice to her. -nods- almost bought a guess handbag but my mom refused to get it for me.. and there's this very nice pair of pointed shoes at renoma. red.. haha.

a conversation between tasha and i not too long ago..
me: tash.. what do you want to be when you grow up?
her: a woman..

just got home.. its raining pigs and cows and god knows what.. yayy. went to the sale around 4plus.. bought a dkny red toga, dkny beige spag, ax halter, ax tank top, ax orange tee, peterlang belt, ck top and a emporioarmani bra. haha. the bra is damn nice.. navy green with veryy nice straps. :) spent about 500+. lucky my mom was there. heh.

went to taka after that. met cat, wai and kelly. walked around then went to cine. fucking boring day.. then went to the ktv at hellosingtel.. met steffi, denise, reonald, anthony and nelson.. then the guys left. so it was only the girls.. hrrm. went to cine to rot after that.. saw cheryl, colin and rachel..

was supposed to go to kimseng but it rained. anyway i should have went.. ah. nevermind. whatever.

think im going to the sale again tomorrow with my aunt and my mom. not sure yet.. owell. more shopping? yayy. at the ktv just now, sang some songs that brought back lots of memories.. sigh.

im not being paranoid today. im not being paranoid today. i have a right to react the way i reacted. and things are getting so complicated now its scary. i hate it when things are like this.

just got back.. was downstairs at my cousin's place.. with afew of my other cousins there.. then one of them brought their husband's nephew and niece there.. this very cute pair of siblings thats here in singapore on a vacation.. they're from london.. daddy's a caucasian.. mommy's a singaporean.. reallly good looking pair of kids.

the 4 year old boy is called darlie and the 7 year old girl is called kito.. she's a model.. very thin for her age.. got this very pretty mixed look.. abit asian and yet abit exotic.. think she'll be quite hot in future.. haha. she has done modelling for french connection, gap, old navy, marks and specner.. not mentioning advertisements.. and she's so talkative.. talks with a british accent and she's full of crap.. and she calls me mommy. so now i've got a errr, 7 year old daughter? lol.

yayy. took some pictures of them. finally finished this roll of flim.. cant wait to wash it tomorrow. yayyy. :)

i just cut my hair.. at kimage.. wahlao. its fucking horrible. everyone will just see me with super bad hair for the next month. damn. i wanted to go to the usual place where i always cut my hair, the hair shop at the paragon. but then my mom insisted that since its just a trim.. no point paying so much. ugh.

yayy. i think im going to the club21 sale tomorrow. :) wooohoo! i see mambo, ck, ax, diesel, paulfrank. lets just hope that i can actually find something i like beneath the rumble. actually i dont think i will. but the thought of finding something at a sale is kinda thrilling. hahaha. call it cheap thrill or maybe im just a typrical singaporean? hrrm.. remember last year i went to the sale in my st marg's uniform.. called my mom early in the morning after recess to tell her that i wanna meet her there.. bought quite alot of things last year.. spent about 400+.. but actually.. i havent even worn most of the clothes i bought there.. only wore like 2 tops.. the rest of the tops and pants are chucked at the back of my wardrobe. its just the cheap thrill of getting something that you know you wont wear and you dont even like.. just because you know you'll be getting it alot cheaper that usual. for example the many ck tank tops i bought last year.. didnt even wear them. thought they were too tacky and all.. but just bought for the fun of it. tsk. im a bloody impulsive shopper. like how i spent all 600+ of my pay for the dec holidays on one single saturday? buying 3 pairs of jeans on the same day and more shoes when i've got more than enough. maybe going to the sale tomorrow isnt really such a good idea now.

owell.. im off to watch my hollandvillage.. the show is so aunty.. but.. ahh.

growls. there is a club21 sale and my mom doesnt wanna bring me there. fuck. anyway im home early today. no one to meet. blarghs. school was boring... slacking. i didnt talk for 2 periods.. just a dare. haha. and i did it. :) oooer, i suddenly feel like piercing my tongue.. should i?

oh yesterday wai came over rite, then we were studying.. and it was raining.. so we decided to go to the furobath. we just kept our books and went to book the furobath thingy. haha. cant believe it. oh well.. i wanna go to the sale!!! -pouts-

-phew- i passed my mother tongue o level.. but its just a c6. yar. at least its something to be proud of since i've not passed any mid year, or end of year mother tongue examination.. so its kinda a miracle how i actually passed. haha. miracle how i passed my N levels too. i was so afraid i will flunk it or something.. anyway now im still deciding whether or not im going to re-take the paper.. hrrms. oh yes, and for passing my chinese, my sister will return my phone back to its rightful owner.. ahem. thats me.. this friday. :) yayy!

i had my english oral today. for the o levels.. kinda alright.. hope i fare well in it. my friend was so funny today. talking so much rubbish. asking my about my smss days and all.. haha.

met wai in the evening.. accompanied her and xinping to the temple near my place.. hrrms.. saw how they prayed and all.. then saw all the figures? yar.. and i wore my exodus slipper rite.. and it broke. both of it.. what the hell. that pair of slipper cost me 70 bucks. its the turquoise sequinned one.. damn.

school tomorrow. -yawns- maths test.. and i've not studied yet. yet yet yet.

wanna know my death time tomorrow? 10am. im sure to flunk my mother tongue O levels. shit.

im in the school library now. life sucks without a phone. damn. i woke up this morning looking for my phone.. then i remembered that its with my sister. ugh. oh.. you know yesterday afternoon i was kinda angry and irritated rite.. so i took the penkinfe from my sister's table and tried to cut my left wrist.. the area where i always cut.. then i cut 46 lines.. BUT.. then nothing at all.. so i took a new blade, cut the clade.. and cut again.. then still nothing. i think that area on my hand is prone to cuts already.

haiyarhs. i heard O level mother tongue results will be out soon.. fucking scared. got a damn strong feeling i will fail. i miss my phone.. :( no more sms-ing and calls. my friend is attempting to teach me cantonese now.. and i suck at it. ha.

wahlao. guess what. today wai came over rite.. then my sister was home. and im not supposed to have anyone over cos im supposed to be studying.. anyway lucky my sis didnt see wai.. cos she doesnt like her. she thought wai was some st marg's girl.. -wails- guess what, my handphone is confiscated.. ugh. what the hell. as a punishment. till next friday. somemore im using a 8210 now cos my 7210 got confiscated by my school and i will only get it back on the 25th. now this 8210 also confiscated. double ugh!! no phone is like.. ugh. hard to live larh. haiyar. have to learn how to survive.. anyway those that need to contact me, call my house and ask my mom for my number over here.. or just ask around la. yar. dont want to publish it online..

anyway.. bett i read your sms.. but i had to give my phone to my sis. so i didnt remember the url. i will call you soon yar? and sheryl, i've got no phone.. call my house.. bukitpanjang.. u should know the number rite? or ask bran or something k. tell me if you dont have it.. we're still meeting on sat rite? i hope so yar?

haha. im in the school library now. free period. -yawn- this morning during assembly.. i was sitting cross legged rite, then i fell asleep.. haha. i totally bent down and slept on my bag. stupid. then some stupid bitch teacher had to wake me up. growls. oooer. i ate strawberry mentos. its damn nice. and err, on the mentos wrapper, it says limited edition.. wth? now even sweets are.... limited edition? gawd. enough said.. hrrm. im craving for some soup from the school canteen.. and i want to eat instant noodles! i want my seafood curry one.. but jacob took it yesterday. bah. haha. ugh, enough about food.. i desperately need to lose weight already.

oh i suddenly remembered something. just now i was at the tohyi coffeeshop rite.. then there was this guy ( read, middle aged guy ) he was sitting on the red chair.. then i dunno how.. the plastic of the chair probable couldnt take his weight.. then the plastic bent.. and he fell.. whats with me man? first the indian woman who banged straight into the glass panel, and now this guy who falls right infront of me? okay. not exactly infront of me but near enough for me to witness and try to surpress my laughter. bran and cj both looked away too incase we burst out laughing. maybe... just maybe.. im a jinx?

went downstairs just now to meet wai and roy. bluffed my mom that i was going to the plaza to borrow some books at 6 and i just got home.. ha. after meeting them, we took a lrt to jelapang to meet jacob. haha. he brought oscar ( his veryyy cute white dog ) down too! :)

so cute.. and we laughed so much.. over the things that jacob said. haha. then there was this other dog trying to hug oscar.. and they were both male dogs.. how about that?! haha. homosexuality in dogs too? hrrms. lol* stupid jacob kept asking his dog to bite my ass. and he claimed that his ass is smaller that mine.. hrmf.

we were so bored so we went up for a drink.. ended up sitting down bitching. about.. -ahem ahem- cant say anything.. everything we said in the house today is to be kept amongst wrdj ( wai, roy, daph, jacob ) haha. sounds like some radio station right? lol. was kinda a serious talk thingy.. yar. not much laughter..

and i needed to do some *ahem grocery shopping.. so we walked over to greenridge's shopping centre. while walking there, i asked wai to carry me. haha. then after awhile jacob carried me.. and then he claimed that he could carry me with one hand.. so he put me down.. then just use one hand to grab my waist area and lifted me up.. and i was screaming like fuck. cos it was so scary. i could have fell or something.. haha. but i didnt larhs. but my navel area hurt a little after that. anyway, i bought lots and lots of instant noodles and potato chips. then wai asked roy to help her buy fag rite.. when they bought it, they refused to give it to wai.. so we started chasing them.. and they ran veryy fast.. so we went up to the house knocking on the door when the lift door opened and we saw them.. haha. stupid. went to fag rite, at the staircase area.. then jacob was telling us sad stories.. so sad can.. so touching. awww. then he started looking through my "shopping bag" and asked me which one was my favourite instant noodles.. and he took it. stupid.. haha. and he claimed it wasnt on purpose..

hrrm. curry chicken for dinner.. like as if im not fat enough. i just downloaded all the songs on the how to deal soundtrack. yipee. :) im one happy girl.

go download dang ni by wang xin ling.. its damn nice.. and its rare that i actually listen to chinese songs.. ha.

guess what? im beginning to love singapore and i just downloaded where i belong, one united people and we will get there. can you believe this? haha. and im singing along.. oh man...

service was gooood. i liked it.. :) haha. went to church saw ailing, and the first thing she said to me was.. "eh you put on weight arhs?.. haha" ahhh! see. i also know i put on weight.. but didnt know its that obvious.. shit. time i go to the gym more often.. swim more often etc etc.

after church, evelyn, hazel and i took 74.. haha. all went to different places.. i went to toh yi to meet bran and cj!! been so long since i last saw them two.. heh heh. missed their company.. had lunch.. it was on steffi! haha. the chilli for my duck rice is so nice that after i finished my rice, i just ate the chilli plain.. damn nice can!. haha. and i introduced cj to the wonders of dunhill menthol lights. haha. talked alot.. bitched too.. then i bought lunch back for my mom.

if you're committed to fun, you're loyal to none.

just got home.. freaking tired. woke up at 8 can?!.. growls. my mom's in a horrible mood. i dont blame her.. cos im supposed to come home straight after the flag day thingy and i didnt.

lets see.. in the morning i got up super early.. got changed and all. supposed to wear either a school shirt or school uniform.. but i wore my most decent outfit.. my white tee ( longest one!! ) and my mambo jeans.. ( highest jeans!! ) with my converse sneakers.. haha. was a little early and my friend havent arrived yet.. ( somerset mrt ) so i went over to ocbc's coffeebean.. haha. so shocked jag still remembered my name.. he made me a free drink! haha. its a new drink.. quite nice.. heh. thennn. i had to go and help him buy fag. i tried to buy at 7-11 but the stupid aunty asked for my i/c.. so i walked all the way to heeren to find out that my favourite shop to buy fag is closed.. so i walked all the way to cine and i managed to pass off as 18 at cine's cheers.. yayy. haha. passed him his fag and i went to do my flag day with my school friends..

started off at paragon.. then went over to lido.. haha. stood outside the escalotor.. then alot alot of people donated. haha. then my friend and i were so bored we went to watch a movie upstairs.. watched how to deal. its a veryy nice show. so sweeeet. :) haha. and i cried.. whats new. mandy moore and allison janney are hot hot hot. oooer. the way the make out in the movie.. haha. maomao called during the movie ask me to meet him after the show. then after the movie, i met wai.. then we called maomao and they were in the lido meeting.. stupid. haha. so we walked round and round lido.. then went to somerset to return the tin can.. then went over to heeren to buy our dunhill menthol lights.. haha. then we walked back to lido again!! then they wanted to whack someone so we werent allowed to be near them.. finally when they were done.. we met them again. haha. oh!! wai and i were at the adidas concept store at pacific plaza right, then there was this indian woman who was outside wanting to walk in.. then she walked straight into the glass.. hahaha. i know its mean to laugh.. but... hhahahha.

one by one, all the lido people left.. either to kimseng or god knows where. then was left with only maomao, jacob, wai and i. hahahhahaha. talked so much rubbish. that two and their stupid actions.. they kept imitating us.. then they were like pointing to each of us.. and then..... HAHAHHA. hee. they kept doing all the funny funny actions and the funny funny stuffs. and they were dancing.. as in.. some stupid dance. hahahha. amd jacob dared me to spank his ass and grab it.. hahahha. stupid ass. but i only kicked his stupid ass. ha. then he asked me how much would i rate it.. hahah. then he started doing the mud dance again..

then we went up to meet the rest when jacob and vincent left.. haha. so fucking boring. all the g-cube people.. then wai and i went to heeren.. to take neoprints!!! hahahha. just the two of us.. damn funny.. hahhaa. then went over to cine to buy my pao.. then we headed to kimseng. heh heh heh. met cat there.. so long didnt see her.. haha. missed my partner.. hahahha. talked rubbish.. and played the card thingy again!! with 46 its like the perfect thing again.. but with little birty lets just say.. its the same larhs. hai. then wai and i left to go to boat quay.. went to taps first then went to hot stuff.. both horrible places.. haha. left early cos i needed to be home.. ha. was in the cab with wai and she shared some big secret of hers to me.. was veryyy shocked. yar. hahaha.

church tomorrow. i think. dont care.. just gonna wake up and leave the house.. i think im becoming too naughty. ugh.

i miss forty-six.. and twenty-six.. yar.

im pissed. very very very fucking pissed. veryy angry with my fucking mom. i was fucking nice enough to inform her that im doing flag day tomorrow in town. and in turn? she comes into my room and shouts like a fucking mad bitch on how im lying to her. so i just shut my mouth and asked her to meet me in town tomorrow while im doing the fucking flag day and she fucking reply that she will do it. so just do it larh? talk to much fuck for wat? waste of her fucking time. and she only caused me to be in a horrible mood now. im splurting vulgarities all over now. fucking fucking pissed. i mean she fucking expects a letter from school. fucking bitch, get that in your head, im not in smss now. they dont fucking print letters for every single thing. UGH. im fucking pissed. and she just demanded that i come straight home after flag day tomorrow. and im sure she's fucking not going to give me money tomorrow. motherfuckingbitch. no way im coming home straight even if she goes all the way down to town to drag me home. im going out after flag day and thats it. simple.

i just got home.. from bukitbatok that is. wow. ive not been to town for a week! haha. so damn bloody proud of myself.. :)

lets see.. my sister was in a really foul mood last night hence i didnt dare to even use the computer incase she snaps at me. yesterday roy and wai came over.. and i went to the gym! haha. owell.. realised how badly in shape i am. bah! the motivation that made me go to the gym was owell.. they took our height and weight yesterday in school. and oh man.. i grew a little taller. im not standing short at a miserable height of 167 and my weight? oh man.. lets not talk about that... i think im overweight can?!. anyway at the bus stop, roy told wai and i sth about errr.. hahaha. enough said! we're supposed to keep our mouth shut!! hahaha. super dumb.. i miss my lil bird. :)

i didnt go to school today!! haha. since there are like no lessons.. so why waste my time? woke up this morning about 10plus.. then wai came over.. haha. first we swam.. water was so freaking cold while the sun was shining. oooer. fagging after swimming is heaven. anyway.. out of point. after the swim.. we went over the the furobath. the water was so dammit hot. wai got in and jumped outta it. but after awhile it was veryy comfy. :) haha. thenn we were so bored we went to the suana. almost died there. haha. pespired like a mad cow. thennn. we went to swim AGAIN. suntanning plus dunhill menthol lights is... veryyy nice. haha. :) went up.. and we bathed together. HAHA. not literally. but with our swimsuits on.. lol*

then we walked alllll the way to the coffeeshop behind to eat chicken wings and fries. with our drink and fag, it was quite an enjoyable meal. hahah. bitched like crazy. heh. went back home and lazed around.. watched tv.. then we took the same bus back.

owell.. i've got flag day tomorrow! you guys better come and support me! morning in town!!! hahah.

eh i actually updated my blog yesterday in school. dunno why nothing appeared. anyway met maomao and wai after school yesterday. then roy came over to meet wai in the evening near my place.. hrrms. oh.. talked to my partnerincrime last night. mini bitching session. lol*.

i've not been to town since last friday. oh mann. im so fucking proud my myself. :) haha. its like reallllly amazing cos for as long as i could remember, i've been going to town straight after school for afew months. haha. time i stop that habit.

think wai's coming over to swim tomorrow. not sure.. we shall see the weather. i wanna learn thai boxing!! hahaha. owell... i dont know what to say. i think im quite screwed. Os soon and im still slacking away. sheeeeesh!

haiyarhs. im feeling a little bit off now. dont know why. sigh.

watching hollandvillage now. so touching. now everyone go awww.
haha. today i went to school and i had no lessons AT ALL. let me repeat this again. NO LESSONS at all.
cos my science teacher was on some stupid course thingy. then the rest of the day was art ( which i dont take ) and cme which is like slping period. what a waste of time.

this morning my school was practising the nationalday2003 songs. then i suddenly remembered the fun we had last year during st marg's national day celebration. it was so so fun. memories. sigh. then my school was singing the school song.. what went through in my mind was the st marg's school song and school hymn. i mean afterall i sang that for 10 frigging years?

anyway after school i met vincent in commonwealth. that stupid idiot decided to take 196 to clementi to meet wai. then 196 went through this SUPER long route.. and we were fucking late. anyway met wai there.. then we went to macdonalds for maomao to have his lunch. haha. laughed so much.

then they came over to my sister's place.. ( oh yar now im staying at bukitbatok. ) we were so fucking crappy. wanted to watch mrbean.. then we were playing with tasha's rocket toy. wai and i were shooting vincent and he was trying to hide. haha. then we played with tasha's beach ball and all.. haha.. dumb.. but had fun. had a little bitching session too. then oh.. played some fortune telling thingy. some love shit.. and its.. ahem ahem..... quite true ehs? haha.

wai's like so in love with her sunshine79. and me? haha. lets just say i drew this lil birdy on my hand today. :)) -grins- and you know what? we're both straight. hahaha. believe it? haha. up to you..

we fagged at the staircase.. got one part.. thought my sis came home.. we were so fucking scared can. haha. then i sent them down.. hrrms. back to my tv!

-yawns- i just got up.
and i didnt sneak out last night. i kinda quarreled with my mom. and she didnt allow me to go still.. but i just left the house anyway at about 11. took 75 to kimseng to meet wai, roy, cat etc etc etc. walked to 7-11 cos the guys wanted to buy fag. then it started raining! so we took a cab from greatworld to kimseng plaza. how dumb when its so so so near!

anyway then we all headed to eastcoast. i hereby announce that it is the most boring chalet that i've ever been to. quite alot of people were there. but then mainly we were all in cliques and stuff. mostly we were at the beach. sitting down enjoying the breeze. haha. damn nice. somemore it was about to rain so it was damn windy. albert , tony and this other guy i-dont-know-his-name and i were trying to bury a bottle. then when i turned around they threw the bottle away and i didnt know. sheesh. so i started digging for the bottle. how dumb. then stupid albert decided to throw sand at my shirt.. so we ended up chasing each other around the area trying to throw sand at each other. sheeshh. oh.. and the coasta sands gate closes at 2am right, then after 2am, wai and i needed to pee realllllllly badly. so we climbed over the gate.. fucking scary especially the part where we had to jump down.

oh man, sam's leaving tomorrow. and ferdian already left this morning. not like i know them for quite some time.. but it was quite sad when ferdian came over and like said his last goodbyes to us before we left.. then he said something like.. "see you all next year okay?" oh man.. hrrms. gonna miss their crap-ness.

at about 5am, we were so fucking tired.. we went up to the room to sleep. but didnt really managed to sleep cos everyone was being so fucking irritating. so i think about 7.. jacob, roy, wai and i took a cab to sunset way. then jacob and i took a bus allll the way to bukitpanjang and i reached home at about..... 730? slept all the way till now.. -yawns-

hrrrms. he looked veryy nice last night. :) -grins- im one happy girl last night. blarghs, but he left quite early. boohoo. :( anyway.. no im not in love.. its just.... joy. :) heh.

im at my sister's place now. swam for about an hour just now with tasha.
im still planning to go to the chalet later. may be sneaking outta my house in the middle of the night. ouch. i just drank some soup and now my tongue hurts. fuckk.

guess what, its a saturday and im not going out.
and let me say this again, its a saturday and im stuck at home. what the hell?! im supposed to go the the lidokidz chalet at eastcoast now. everyone's gonna be there. :( ugh. i fucking want to go there!!! -growls-

school. = booooring. but i laughed alottt during geography lesson. stupid edison. kept making lame jokes. after school met wai.. walked around cine then bought fag at heeren. haha. the uncle remembers me i thinkk. haha.

then let see, met azhar, jacob and nelson at fareast. those stupid idiots were planning a chalet for tonight! think its confirmed already.. east coast.. roamed around fareast.. then ferdian came. and they allll went to eastcoast to book the chalet, leaving wai and i in fareast to wait for vincent..

was walking around aimlessly then i saw my muackspartner beks! haha. that silly girl chased me from the 3rd level to the 2nd level cos she wanted to confiscated my fag. but i didnt even have any fag with me. never had. im a professional fag freeloader. :) hahah. not shy. tskk.

then we went to meet vincent at the bus-stop righttt, saw this guy coming down the escalator.. couldnt see the face yet.. was wondering whether its vincent.. then when he came down, wai and i said the same thing at the exact same time.... shant say what it is otherwise his ego will go up reallllly high. that silly idiot wanted to eat at longjohn's. haha. and then he bought me a drink right, and i SPILT the whole cup of medium coke while putting the tray down. so fucking embarrassing can!! growls. then we switched tables then he bought me another drink. haha. felt so mean. we were.. having a mini bitching session about tau you te ka. -sniggers- haha. inside joke man.. then lets see, roy came. then catherine came too. haha. then cat left.. so wai and i left soon after too..

was on the bus right, was infront of these 2 indian women..
fat one: " you know right... he wears a wig because his hair is very very curly?"
i heard that and started smiling to myself... till i had to cover my mouth. it was fucking funny. hahah. maybe im just being dumb.. blarghs.

oh well, happppppppyyyyy. :)

its been two freaking long years and a month. oh man.. time sure flies..